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Well it has been a while since I have blogged. Trying to work out what to say and to put what has happened into perspective. Since my last blog I must admit I have felt pretty good but also very horny. Unfortunatly, John (the internet guy) has unleashed feelings I had forgotten about . I am on facebook with my friends and family and yes I do sign up for things that they send me. One such thing was ayi. The email I got was a friend thinks your great. So I clicked to see how it was and fiound this site that sort of a dating site, but a bit different. I didn't end up doing anything, last thing I needed was another dating site. 2 days later I had an email on facebook from someone named George saying he had seen my profile and wanted to know if I wanted to chat sometime. I was about to delet when I saw his photo and my niece said what did I have to lose? So I said yes. Why not see what he had to say. Well he is one of the most gorgeous people I have ever met. We talk about anything and everything. He makes me laugh and makes me feel so sexy and special. Unfortunatly he lives in England and I live in Australia. Just my luck to meet someone so great that lives on the other side of the world and 10 hours behind. Nothing can ever happen our lives are to far apart, but I am so glad I met him. I know exactly what I am looking for and how I want to be treated. Thank you George I am so grateful I met you. We will always be friends and I wish him well and hope he meets someone to make him happy he so deserves it.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Internet dating
Well that guy I thought was so sweet? Not so sweet more weird. Things were going great we were getting along so well. Always laughing and talking. Things were hotting up and we couldn't wait to meet. We talked about everything, including sex. I was turned on by him more than I thought was posible. We even had phone sex. (A first for me) I felt so alive and cared about. I was hopeful about the future. Not expecting love but knowing that I was getting closer to a great guy who was wanting to be with me.
Yesterday it all turned to shit.
The day started great. I was feeling good and knew that I would hear from him again. He txt me and told me how wonderful it was to wake up to look at a picture of me and we discussed when he was come to meet me. We started making plans and discussing details. After about 10 wonderful txt he all of a sudden started getting nasty. He asked me to send him a photo of all of me. When I told him that I didn't feel comfortable with that and that I wanted to have some class. He then txt that if I had class I would have not said the things we said and I would have left him to wonder about my thoughts.
We had been talking for 2 weeks and things were getting hot and we were getting closer so naturally I was loosening up and relaxing in his company. He also said and did things and chased me and flirted and made me feel like he wanted to take things to the next level.
I was dumbfounded that he could say that. There were no signs, no inclination that this could happen. When we spoke there was nothing but laughter and caring in his voice. 2 seconds before we were laughing and having a good time. Things then got worse and nastier. The final txt I sent him was that we were adults and not kids and it was fun to know him. He didn't agree. Needless to say I was shocked and don't know if I want to do the internet thing again. I was really weary to begin with and had not said yes to get to know anyone else but felt a connection with him. We didn't just talk on the internet but on the phone and he rang me every night. We became friends on facebook. I let my guard down and started to enjoy the attention of the opposite sex. He knew that I wanted to take things slowly and that my kids were my first priority. When things got nasty he made it seem like I was playing him and acted like he was a jilted partner. I still don't understand. I have gone over all our conversations and txts and I cannot see any problem with any of them or why he would act like that except for the fact that I didn't want to send a naked photo of me over the net. I don't know if I can let my guard down like that again. I'm not stupid and I knew what I was getting into, but I did not expect things to snap so fast. I hope that one day I will meet someone who will understand me make me laugh, turn me on and not turn into a jerk. I don't know how this is going to happen or when, but I hope it does. At the moment I just feel empty, lost and alone......................
Has anyone else had this problem?
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http://www.sokule.com/paulie65
Yesterday it all turned to shit.
The day started great. I was feeling good and knew that I would hear from him again. He txt me and told me how wonderful it was to wake up to look at a picture of me and we discussed when he was come to meet me. We started making plans and discussing details. After about 10 wonderful txt he all of a sudden started getting nasty. He asked me to send him a photo of all of me. When I told him that I didn't feel comfortable with that and that I wanted to have some class. He then txt that if I had class I would have not said the things we said and I would have left him to wonder about my thoughts.
We had been talking for 2 weeks and things were getting hot and we were getting closer so naturally I was loosening up and relaxing in his company. He also said and did things and chased me and flirted and made me feel like he wanted to take things to the next level.
I was dumbfounded that he could say that. There were no signs, no inclination that this could happen. When we spoke there was nothing but laughter and caring in his voice. 2 seconds before we were laughing and having a good time. Things then got worse and nastier. The final txt I sent him was that we were adults and not kids and it was fun to know him. He didn't agree. Needless to say I was shocked and don't know if I want to do the internet thing again. I was really weary to begin with and had not said yes to get to know anyone else but felt a connection with him. We didn't just talk on the internet but on the phone and he rang me every night. We became friends on facebook. I let my guard down and started to enjoy the attention of the opposite sex. He knew that I wanted to take things slowly and that my kids were my first priority. When things got nasty he made it seem like I was playing him and acted like he was a jilted partner. I still don't understand. I have gone over all our conversations and txts and I cannot see any problem with any of them or why he would act like that except for the fact that I didn't want to send a naked photo of me over the net. I don't know if I can let my guard down like that again. I'm not stupid and I knew what I was getting into, but I did not expect things to snap so fast. I hope that one day I will meet someone who will understand me make me laugh, turn me on and not turn into a jerk. I don't know how this is going to happen or when, but I hope it does. At the moment I just feel empty, lost and alone......................
Has anyone else had this problem?
http://www.traffic-splash.com/luckypromoter001.html?referer=paulie65
http://www.sokule.com/paulie65
Monday, February 1, 2010
Life is changing. It is moving very fast.
Wow can't believe how things have changed since mylast blogged. The guy I was talking to on the internet has been ringing me every night. My how hot and heavy the conversations have got. I am now feeling very good but also very confused and guilty. Do I tell my kids that I have met someone. So far the answer is no. I have not physically met him yet, so how can I tell the kids I met someone on the internet. Sounds very corny and very desperate. I did not intend to actually meet anyone on the net and was very surprised when I connected with this man. He makes me laugh, and I have not laughed in a long time, it feels good. He also turns me on. Oh boy how he turns me on. I am so confused about my feelings as how can I feel so strongly for a man I have only spoken to and seen photos? It doesn't seem normal. But what is normal these days?
- Then there are the insecurities. Is he true? Does he mean the things he says? Am I comming across as desparate? Is he a player and I am easy prey cause I don't really know what I am doing? I haven't been single for over 20 years. I know there are guys out there who prey on single women for quick easy sex. Is that the way it is going to be for me? So many questions and no answers. Would I like to have sex with this man?????? Yes....... Am I scared??? Yes................ Am I worried I will look like a fool???????YES.............I had internet foreplay with him.. Was it wrong? I don't know, but it was good...... I had phone sex. Was that wrong? Maybe........... but it was great. Do I want to have sex with him in real life? Yes. I don't know if I am being used but I am having a good time. For now.
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