Surviving with no money

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Well I had a great Australia day. Didn't do much but hung out with a great friend who is a single mum and her kid's. She has just had big hassle with her fiance, who is no longer her fiance. He decided that Australia day was the day that he was going to leave her stranded and take the car that he bought for her away from her. She doesn't care any more.. He proved he only wanted her for sex and her kids had grown to dispise him. She says she is heaps happier. I often wonder if finding someone to love is possible as we all have baggage as we get older and it is harder to deal with as we are not nieve any more.

Anyway, Australia was good great bbq at her place, kids swimming in pool, great conversation. Then we went to the beach for awhile. No stress just fun.

Today reality came back with a bang. Bills to pay and no money to pay them. I had a house inspection on the house I rent, so I was cleaning all day in 35 degrees celcius. Panicking that it won't pass and they won't want to renew my lease. The life of the only parent is tough because no body else is there to make sure the pieces fit and everything works, you are alone. I had $263 to pay rent of $520 and other small bills as well as school went back so I have to make sure I have enough for lunchs and I have to do groceries. What to do. I have 3 kids and I have 1 income and no other chance of a second income. The bills I have are the same as a married couple with 3 kids, but where they can make 2 incomes, there is only 1 in my house until my kids grow up. How is the only parent to survive. Some single mothers at least get maintainence. The only parent, NONE. Not even a night or weekend kid free to revitalise. How do we cope? I have no idea. But we do. Anyway, I paid 2 days rent of $150, to stop being sent a remedy notice and bought enough cheap food to make a couple of good meals and will have pasta on other nights. I will bake for school snacks. Hopefully, that will keep wolves at bay for a week or until I can work out where else to make money that fits in with the kids. Any sugestions?
Anyway on a brighter note. The guy I have spoken to on the speed date site has txt me twice. He seems so sweet. Have no idea what I am getting into but it feels good. I am supposed to talk to him tonight. Hope he comes on. God I have no idea what I a doing. Time will tell. Keep in touch and find out more. Heart break or love. Money or contiuously broke. Only the fate knows. God damn you fate. Ha Ha bye for now.